Ugly Frown

January 2014 in Bend, Oregon. (Return to the old bench of my "old & dead girl".)

What would happen if I let it all die?

If I closed my eyes?

If I didn't breathe again?

Would the sun cry?

Would the stars seize to shine?

Would hearts ache?

Would you long for me by your side?

Would music bring me back to your life?

Would you want to run or hide? 

What would happen if you didn't see My smile again? 

I was my prettiest with a smile on. 

Don't you agree with me? 

Every person received my smile did you?

Maybe I didn't smile at you enough 

You were my only enemy.

I was always mad at you. 

Maybe you were the only one I didn't like? 

In fact I am pretty sure I hated you. 

I avoided you so I didn't need to hear your broken words.

They hurt, they made me feel sick and want to die.

So with you I wore an ugly frown 

any time I saw you. 

What would happen if I let you go?

If I could look at you now and wear a smile? 

If I realized this shattered mirror that I have been 

hiding from, is a scared little child inside. 

I didn't even know your name, until today. 

Jewel is your Name! 

I am going to smile at you today. 

I am going to look you square in the face 

and tell you I think you are beautiful!

I know better now, you are quite wonderful outside 

but mostly a rare & precious gift inside. 

NEVER EVER will I wear that damn ugly frown again!! 

I will love you till the day I die. 

God grieves and cries 
when I hate the child He lovingly designed. 

The world would stop breathing for somedays

if tomorrow I would suddenly die. 

My bright smile would be gone from their eyes. 

So today as I walk by my reflection anywhere

I will not have an ugly frown instead a great big smile 

for I love this lady I see walk by. 

First writing idea came 5/18/08

Edited it with new eyes on 2/1/14 Aida cooper